Kellie Pollock worked for CNN International as a producer, before she left to sail round the world.
(CNN)We are two years and 4,000 nautical miles into our dream of sailing around the world.
For two novice sailors, it feels like quite an accomplishment — but, we have a confession.
We haven’t covered that distance entirely by the power of wind alone. We have used the engine on our sailboat «Boomerang» a lot more than we anticipated.
The main reason has been to compensate for the fickle nature of the Mediterranean winds, which have generally been blowing at a speed which is beyond our present level of skill and patience.
Despite this justification for our occasional diesel-guzzling, many times we’ve watched other boat owners sail on and off moorings and wondered if we have the right to even describe ourselves as sailors.
Are we in some way «cheating» in this time-honored means of travel?
It seemed like a question for more experienced seafarers so I sought them out in marinas and via the online platform «Women Who Sail.»
«A sailor is anyone who takes to water on a boat»
«Sailors throughout history have used every tool at their disposal to accomplish safe and prompt arrival at a destination,» says Niki Fox Elenbaas, who has been sailing with her husband Jamie for almost four decades. «I doubt that Phoenicians considered the deployment of sweeps or kedging as ‘cheating.'»
While the couple prefer to use the sails, they do use their engine when mooring their 40ft catamaran «Grateful.»
«We are able to sail on and off anchor and mooring buoys but why?» asks Fox Elenbaas. «Safety and preserving our bodies for more years of sailing matters more than some idea of ‘purity’ in our journeys.»
Fox Elenbaas was not alone in steering me away from the term "cheating" which may have a place in the rule books for racing but not in the world of pleasure cruising, which boasts a rich, diverse population with myriad reasons for being on a boat.
"To me a sailor is anyone who takes to the water on a boat. It is very broad," says Australian MySail Founder and CEO Deborah Dalziel.
"There are so many types of sailing and boating that can be done and so many different ways to enjoy the sport. I don't think people should limit themselves to a definition here. Sailing is what you make of it."
'Easy is not the goal'
While we at times feel like we are making a bit of a hash of it and fear the humiliation of crashing while docking, we have found the sailing community to be refreshingly non-judgmental and incredibly supportive of all "yachties" no matter what their level of skill.
Among them is Shemaya Laurel who has honed her skills to the point she no longer uses an engine at all on her 20ft Chebacco Glasshouse "Auklet."
"Forethought, planning and schedule flexibility are crucial," says the American skipper, in explaining the challenges of sailing without an engine. "When I think about putting a motor back on the boat, it's because it would make things so much easier, but easy is not necessarily the goal."
For Laurel, the goal is to use traditional rigging and methods of sailing. To use a motor would simply defeat the purpose for her at this point in her sailing career.
Ask anyone who owns a sail boat, ourselves included, and the preference is almost always to leave the engine off.
"I really love it when the wind is strong and the sails are up and the boat is heeled over with water running over the gunnels," says Maribeth Theisen who sails a 43ft Dufour Gib Sea. "There is nothing quite like the quiet absence of engine noise and sounds of the water being sliced by the keel."
Book editor Jennifer Silva Redmond has been sailing since 1989, and says it is the "blessed silence and the feeling of using nature to power your travel."
Closer to Mother Nature
This sentiment was also shared by Jeanne Assael Goussev who made history this year as the skipper of "Sail Like A Girl," the first all-female team and first monohull to win the Race to Alaska.
Engines aren't permitted in this unsupported race, but they were able to power the boat's propellers with bicycles mounted on the stern.
"I have to say that while the notion scared me, I loved relying on nothing but our sails and our bodies," says the Seattle-based sailor. "I felt closer to Mother Nature and the sea than I ever had before."
A desire to protect the environment and reduce our carbon footprint is profound within the sailing community and was also cited by many sailors as the reason they prefer wind over an engine.
Sustainable voyaging advocates Michele and Jon Henderson have sailed 16,000 nautical miles on their boat "Ardea," the vast majority of it by the power of wind alone.
"Wind is better, full stop. The boat handles beautifully under sail and is far more comfortable than when motoring."
Even then, the Hendersons wouldn't be without their engine.
"We use our motor in emergency situations. We had an anchor drag once and another time ended up on a lee shore. In both cases we were pleased to have it."
Engines come in handy... when you hit a sleeping whale
Safety was another key reason many sailors considered it crucial to have auxiliary power on sailboats.
Former corporate executive Jodi Watson and her husband Kirby were thankful for their engine during a recent passage from San Diego to Cabo San Lucas in the Pacific Ocean when they hit, what they believe, was a sleeping whale. The impact knocked out the boat's steering.
"After trying to fix it for eight hours bobbing in the ocean, we had to get the emergency tiller out and steer the boat into safety. If we didn't have a reliable engine during that time, the outcome could have been extremely dire for us."
Budget can be another factor.
Tony and Shannon Morrelli, who sail 45 ft Hunter Legend "SV Sweetie," say the amount they use the engine can come down to the cost of fuel.
"We used to do a lot more motor-sailing in the America's for convenience when fuel was cheaper. We sail much, much more and pick weather windows that allow us to sail entire legs now that we are in Europe with fuel twice as costly."
Mia McCroskey, who began sailing in the mid-1980s, believes people who have sails and don't use them much are "missing the point" but there are still a number of reasons she will turn on the engine.
"Has the wind died? Is my crew complaining that the rigging is rattling noisily? Do we want to get anchored or docked so we can have a beer?"
Bigger question is: why do we sail, and what is our goal?
Needless to say, the sailing community has assured me we are not "cheating." It is more a question of why we sail and what our goal is. At this stage, our focus is on staying safe and remaining enthusiastic in the face of mishaps.
The reality is we couldn't have chosen this incredibly rewarding way of life if we had set off on a boat that was only fitted with sails.
The perils of not having an alternative source of propulsion were amplified for us even on our maiden voyage when we caught a monstrous rope around the propeller, disabling the engine. We were in the English Channel, one of the world's busiest shipping routes, in a flat calm and had to be towed back to land for the safety of ourselves and others.
As our journey, continues it would be wonderful to think that our skills and patience will also progress to the point we could we cover vast distances by the power of wind alone.
But equally, it's nice to know that even if we do "crank up the donk" -- as many sailors put it -- we're still accepted as part of a diverse and inspiring community of adventurers who respect the sea and its farers.
As Niki and Jamie Fox Elenbaas say on "SV Grateful": "Other people's boats are other people's boats. We're just glad to see people boating as opposed to sitting home watching TV."